I once knew a high school football musician( Ill call him Jay) who was destined to go places. Hed played football since he was in elementary school, and by the time he reached his freshman year of high school he was already being watched closely. Jay had always dealt with anxiety but when he hit high school the anxiety increased exponentially. It wasnt uncommon for Jay to have panic attack that no one but family and his guidance counselors knew about. While he quit most social activities, he stuck with football and by his junior year of high school “hes been” recruited by some notable college football programs.
Jays anxiety had increased nonetheless with each passing year, and have commenced effecting his first love, football. At hours his anxiety was so bad, he struggled to run out onto the field at play hour. When his senior year ended, Jay turned down every offering for athletic scholarships opting to attend a community college close to home. His household dismayed at the ever increasing level of anxiety didnt understand and tried to army him into a variety of unwanted situations that typically ended in calamity or controversies.
In an effort to escape what he viewed as his familys censure and the dishonor that accompanied that, he moved in with his grandmother who assisted him in taking care of his college related activities until his anxiety became so debilitating that he opted for online grades. His hopes of avoiding the conditions that made him to panic were dashed once he realized many online courses required some level of personal interaction as did customary visits to financial aid and other university student resources. Jay, a former high school football standout who had earned a GPA also worthy of scholarships, eventually plummeted out of community college. The last straw for Jay had been collapsing as he arrived on campus one day, literally crawling on the colleges tile storey in a panic. The last hour I checked on Jay, he rarely ventured into social situations. Occasionally he grocery shops for his grandmother and in his spare time he tends to her vegetable garden which he acquires peaceful.